i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
i dun knoe wad to say le. it's fine for you to reject me. i been prepared for that.... i understand that we have our differences and should jus remain casual friends. i knoe that my love for you will never be return in that way. i dun knoe wad to do now....
i jus read ur blog. i knoe wad ur trying to say. but i have to tell you that it's not that simple... say give up doesn't always mean give up. everytime you ask me "wad's wrong.." do you knoe it's lik having a stake hammered into my heart!? i'm sorry i made you feel that way... i'm sorry i have my mood swings.... i'm sorry i even confessed in the first place... but i do not regret the fact that i once loved you... jus let me be for a while... be it avoiding you or not answering u on msn.... i think that is jus part of my healing process... and i knoe you will still be a friend...
i'm SORRY....
no words can express
my love for you
Monday, November 27, 2006
4:31 AM
thank you for being there. thank you for keeping me company. but i jus dun knoe why or when is started liking you. sometimes i jus wish that u would really be there by my side, but i guess that is no longer possible. i dun think things will be be the same anymore. i jus wanted to let u knoe how i felt. i knoe that you would eventually come to this blog. i dun knoe why i feel the way i'm feeling now. my heart aches and tears are starting to flow. i jus wish that things were the way they were. i wished i didn't get so emotionally involved... stupid la.... you were there to comfort me. you kept my hopes up. you always knew when to joke. i jus hoped u knew how much i cared. i understand that this relationship should not have started. i also knoe that i should not have thought too much. its isn't and wouldn't ever be your fault. i jus i'm jus over sensitive. 4 years apart, leaving sec sch, leaving wif hurt and anguish in my heart... i jus wish i was born later...
thank you.....
no words can express
my love for you
Thursday, November 23, 2006
5:43 AM
been a long time since i posted a blog... think back about the previous blog only brings back memories which i no longer wan. i dun knoe when it started. i think i got this crush on one of my juniors and it's more than i can handle. the pain the hurt is jus not worth it. i dun knoe if i should make the first move. but it jus hurts, both of us. now that i'm leaving i dun wan to be hurt or hurt another. i think i sound damn pathetic. i think i have changed over the past year. my pride has been hurt. my trust has been misplaced. who am i to trust? those around me have change.... they are starting to show their true colours... am i the one who have been over sensitive all this while? the people around me are all making their moves... they are starting to go after those they care for.... and i have been left in the dust... no one really cares anymore. they say since the Os are over we are no longer friends or something... everyone is starting to turn their back on each other... fuck it lar... why the hell is the world changing so fast.... we have lost our sense of values and morals. honour loyalty are jus words that others used to make up for their incapibility. blood brothers have all left us. we are alone.
i dun think u knoe wad i mean. and i dun knoe wad i'm doing. i jus lik u that's it. i knoe u wun ever come across this website and i dun knoe if i wan u to... wadever i'm doing knoe is going against everything that i've based my life upon. my charater has changed, for the better or worse i dun knoe... i am trying to close the gap between us, but wad is there for me to chat about? it takes 2 hands to clap... i am trying my best but i dun knoe if u even notice... every time i try, u dun always give me a reply. wad am i to do? i jus simply love ur smile ur jokes ur character... and U.... i dun knoe where this will lead to. and i knoe the ending wun be pretty... but should i or should i not?
no words can express
my love for you
im waiting for the day.
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